day when lecture does not totally suck.
rough morning
did not want to get up
5am comes too quickly when the to do list is never ending
but i’m back in the thick of it
felt like i made a huge mistake last week
but
it’s better now
still stressful
but i’m meeting people
makes it less frightening
even though this is my second time around
i haven’t told anyone except for the people
who know me from micro
i don’t want to.seem like the biggest loser
or that i couldn’t hack it
except for the fact i had a lot going on
like sub-optimal mental health
an ungodly amount of stress
the diabetes
and burning the candle via blowtorch
and caffeine
lots of caffeine
too much caffeine
but the classes were difficult
and i felt like i needed to know everything
you can’t know everything so
cut yourself sone slack
it’s weird to get out early from lecture. almost never happens. nursing school is one big well of suck but, it’s a means to an end. a way i can live on my own, after my parents are gone, and other shit i’d rather not think about. the day is surely coming.
40oz of coffee to my face this morning
the reason why i feel like
i’m going to carpet-bomb fertilize my cords
shitty britches
“hey Furlong, tell your girlfriend to not forget to wash her ass…”
I hope you all are well.
Cheers,
jj
