Friday, January 05, 2024

Been awhile since...


i've done one of these but here we are.

...so this is the new year 

and im feeling somewhat diferrent. its really starting to bang home how im probably on the back 18. some days feel more like it than others, the good days still come. on the eve of 24, after visiting with family, chatting and watching 45 minutes of the John Hughes masterpiece, "the breakfast club" perspective rings true this is not just another teen movie. but i digress. 

...so this is the new year

and i'm not sure the drugs are still working 
the sadness fucking ebbing and lurking
the sleepless nights and hours of panic 
cant blow mmy cover show them all i'm so mmanic 
cant show them all i'm so mmanic 
can't show them all i'm so mmanic 

...so this is the new year 
 and the continued growth of this writer 
 becoming physically and spiritually lighter 
 supporting neither evil nor the simple fascist fighters 
these tRump-emboldened, low i.q. cousin-fuckin' white knighters
miss the times oh so grand, without lapses 
learning more from drunken foosball, than classes 
sweaty calesthenics, grinding out on the dance floor 
youthful bodies in revolt just like they're made for 
we used to rage and have the run of the whole town 
without the threat of being disappeared or gunned down 
stumbling running jumping laughing no touch downs 
i'm not beaming up or beaming out like all these blue clowns 
not beaming up or beaming out like all these blue clowns
not beaming up or beaming out like all these blue clowns 

...so this is the new year 
...so this is the new year 
...so this is the new year 

 i hope you all are well. 

 jj

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